Peter John Feldsine

This area of time was the time of my life where I have the most photos and a good chunk of my memories. The photo above is me and my little brother posing for a normal picture at the mall. The absent smile on my face described a lot of who I was at the time. The picture below is my 3^rd grade basketball picture. I played basketball all through out my childhood and this was my best picture. I remember not liking being in that position very much, but still being able to get the smile on my face. The picture below is me and my smile that I was known for posing again in a single picture.

This time was full of memories for me. I was going to public school and it was kind of hard for me. During this time I was a very shy kid and did not like to talk very much, but always had a smile on my face. I was a likeable kid, but you had to work me to get me to show my smile. My favorite foods were pizza and I also first learned about soda pop. My favorite TV shows were Pokemon and Catdog. I also began playing a few video games which I would like a lot. I also enjoyed playing with my toy cars. I had many friends, a few of which I still have today, that I made by talking to them. I remember when I first met my friend Ross on the bus home. We just started talking because he was sitting next to me. He sat next to me everyday after that. He is still my friend today.

This is what I call one of my greatest photos. Through my teenage years I have never been a good picture taker, but this was a good one. The timing was exactly right too, since this was my 8^th grade graduation picture. I remember not liking the gown I was forced to wear, but I liked how it looked in the picture. I remember my friends laughing at me a bit for the way I looking in the photo, but I liked it. I also thought that it was again annoying to have to pose again.

During this time, I was a much more lively kid. After 6^th grade, I being shy and not talking a lot went out the window. I became a lot more talkative and sometimes couldn’t even shut up. I made a lot more friends this way though, I loved pizza, soda, fruit snacks, and any other snack you can find. My favorite TV shows have changed dramatically. Instead of being cartoons, my favorite shows are now sports shows. These shows are Sports Center and NFL Prime Time. I love playing video games, especially sports ones. I have made a huge amount of friends thanks to my attitude, including a lot that go to the school at East High.  I continue to try to make friends everyday. I like playing sports, and I especially love watching the NFL on TV.

There are many ways I have changed over the years. One main way is my concepts of relationships. As I have grown older, I have gained more complex and more types of relationships. When I was a baby, I didn’t even know what the word relationship meant. Now, I know what they mean and am still evolving my relationships with everyone. I am realizing every day that my relationship building takes a lot of time, work and skill. Sometimes I have realized I do not want to take the time to do this, but know I must. I have matured in all my relationships.

I have grown to love my family more than a lot of things in the world. When I was a little kid, I did not understand how much my family meant to me, but I did know that they took care of me. I have become more emotional to my family, sometimes too good, sometimes for the worse. I have realized that my family helps me be who I am today and realized what goes on in my family. Sometimes what goes on in my family is more than it appears and I have found that out as I grow up. I have also depended more on myself as I grow older and less on my parents like I did when I was younger.

Last of all, I have matured greatly in my spiritual life. As a baby, I didn’t even know what my faith was. As I grew, I then started to have to go to church every week, but didn’t know what it meant. Then I started to have to go to church every week, but still didn’t know what it meant. Then I started having CCD after school on Wednesdays every week and began learning about my faith.  When I became a teenager, I went to a Catholic school and learned more about my faith than I thought I could know. When I came to this high school, I began to see some thing in my faith, especially brought on by questions about my faith from my non-Catholic mom. I have begun to spiritually question myself and my faith and now only hope that I find the answers. I am sure of the fact that I have definitely matured through the years of my life.

Peter graduated from Eastside Catholic High School and enrolled in Santa Clara University in California.  In facebook, his friends shared their love and thanks for all the kindness, humor, positive energy and smiles Peter shared with them. He was very social and was working hard to stay fit both mentally and physically. He had endured several surgeries and in his quest to lead a normal pain-free life with no more meds nor surgical procedures, he lost his life.